Tuesday, October 19, 2010

the one who are smiling evryday...

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总有一些人,他们看上去整天都很开心,嘻嘻哈哈的,没有烦恼,像个小孩,他们会说玩是我最大的乐趣,我很喜欢玩,我什么都会玩人多的时候他们脸上总挂着笑容,好多人都会羡慕他们,然而这其实是他们最悲哀的地方,他们不想让别人看到自己难过的一面,更没有能力一个人独处,因为当夜深人静的时候,他不知道一个人会发生什么事,坐在窗前冥想走过的点滴

没有人读的懂他们,想着想着貌似快乐的他们就会黯然流下一脸的悲伤,然后自己对自己说:其实也没什么,命运吧!所以他们就整天逼自己笑,以此来逃避那些常人所不能不承受的痛苦!

他们貌似很坚强,因为在别人看来,他们什么事都能微笑着去面对,但事实上他们长着世界上最脆弱的心灵,只是长期的伪装使得别人很难发现他们内心深处的创伤。 他们其实非常孤独,虽然看到他们时都是在跟一群人谈天说地,那是因为他们实在不能承受一个人时的折磨!

他们只想简简单单、快快乐乐的活着,期待并且相信每个人给的笑容都是真心的,希望身边的人都是真正的喜欢自己。即使别人小小的意见,也会另他们难过好久,他们真的真的很介意,介意自己不被人喜欢。因为,他们总是为别人想的很多,对别人总是比对自己好;把能对喜欢的人好当做幸福,喜欢别人比喜欢自己多。

他们总是那样,前一秒还伤心的流着泪,后一秒出现在朋友面前的时候,已经满脸溢着灿烂的笑容。有人说他们是向日葵,是的,他们在意的人就像是太阳,在面对太阳的时候永远是明艳的花瓣,而太阳照不到的背面,那悲伤藏得那么好,不愿被看见。

他们向往放纵自由的生活,却必须为了谁很努力的朝另外的一个方向活着,很累很累,却仍是心甘情愿。离自己的梦境越来越来远,不得不面对从未想过的争夺和复杂,恐慌、不知所措。只有面对最信赖的人时,才会卸下盔甲,委屈的流下眼泪。因为在他们心里,笑就是开心,哭就是难过,接近就是喜欢,远离就是讨厌。但其实不是,他们明白了,心好伤,眼泪就没忍住。哭过之后,笑笑得擦干眼泪,说,没关系,我可以做的很好的。

他们好像无所不能,好像总是不会有烦恼,好像什么问题都能轻而易举的解决,总是喜欢喜欢出现在流泪的人面前,笑嘻嘻的逗着笑。而面对自己的问题,他们却茫然无措,面对自己的悲伤,他们只会躲在人们看不见的角落里慢慢由伤口越裂越大。

他们的想法非常简单,说出来的就是心里所想的,肚子里不会拐七道八道的小弯,无心的话可能会引起别人的误解。所以,请别记恨他们,他们从不愿伤害谁,小小的错误就能让他们懊悔很久。

他们其实非常单纯,甚至你曾经给了他一个微笑他也会一辈子记得你的好,因此他们的世界观其实也很简单,他们很容易受蛊惑 ,请不要轻易的伤害他们的感情,因为一旦伤害了,那就将永远弥补不回来! 如果你身边有这种人请你给予他(她)那怕是凤毛麟角的那点关怀,让他(她)知道这个世界没有抛弃他们
 
 
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所以,想想你身边的人,是否也是如此?
那就多些关心吧
没有人是不要关心的。。。

Friday, October 15, 2010

这一天。。。

这一天的前一天晚上,收到不少的祝福,期待隔一天,想着,睡着了。。。
这一天的前一天,发生了不如意的事【请参考前一个帖子】
这一天,头很痛,中午12++被一连串咆哮声,被逼而醒。。。
这一天, 啥也没吃,胃在埋怨了,才甘愿去买。。。吃斋。。。
这一天,一整天待在电脑前,回应着大家给予的祝福,看着戏
              ~就这样过了一下午。。。
这一天晚上,冲忙洗澡,啥也吃不下,出去看人家走火路。。。
这一天,耳边出现的,不是什么,就是咆哮声以及骂声,吵声。。。
     ~但。。。看到的却是许多的祝福。。。
     ~熟悉的也有,就连陌生的也多,谢谢。。。
这一天,有着一小段胆惊,害怕在2个小地方。。。度过。。。
这一天,绝大多数与电脑度过。。。
这一天,临终时,它给我的留恋是---大家的祝福。。。
这一天,一丝丝,一点点,一滴滴的一些些的一个小小期待,还是让我
有了一丝丝,一点点,一滴滴,一些些的绝望及伤心。。。
但。。。在它临终之后的隔几分钟,带给我一小小的好消息^^

这一天,就只不过是。。。
我15岁的生日。。。
平平无奇的一天。。。
但却又好像是挺充实的。。。就是这一天。。。。。

Thursday, October 14, 2010

damn shit & oso a different experiance day ...

2day beginning, every thing going happy, success
me wif my frenz gathered together.
we ply uno and a few hand's game
happy , fun , enjoyful is growing around us
we plan to continue after recess, but we had forgot we still had a taklimat

after recess me & jia go sortition of basketball competition among class
we get P1, 3.1, 3.2, 3.3 &3.4 get tiz too
omg, fell a lot nervous now
after back of taklimat, alot of unfortunate is happen
jiaqi's phone been stealed, jia's RM 50 too , our class is jz seem like jz finished a battle
hald of our class's bag had been open
i dun noe whether my things stealed too, but i think it was no la
we had doubt vf some1, and tiz ppl's percentage was high
tiz pokkai la,we're jz din have the evidence to proof it nia
seii pok gai!! made my dearlly frenz cry so sadly & pekchek
tiz pokgai !!RM 2 oso steal
u din hv money do buy something eat?or ur hand is jz itchy , jz solve it wif stealing?
jz tell me den , i help u ! bring u to hospital, cut down it, cant itchy more !!
RM 2 u take too, y dun u b a beggar, it will get a lot more den u steal !!

huuuuu.....
cz of tiz incident, we plan to centre tiz afternoon
make a new simcard & find job
among the numerous job, we jz get a few tauke get our personal information
watever, the pok gai do , it will past away, we will welcome the new 1 after it together
nitez, me &wei almost get lost
we wait the bus from 7.43p.m den 8.13p.m it arrived
den...we wait until 9 p.m den it depart, it made me more pekchek den
tiz will cz us a lot trouble, we can wait, but we had wait over the time had to departed
watever, it had depart and near to my house .
1st time i sit wif public bus , but me get lot fun n freshness from tiz more den pekchek
but we missed the station we had to leave, omg...
haiz, watever, nvm , we jz leave at the station wif jiaqi dem , den ask my mum to fetch us^^
watever, tiz is jz really the fun , exciting, different experiance  xD

after PMR, beh syok ehh !!!

the day after PMR
i tot tat it will be fun, enjoyful , but....
it made me disappointed
very, so....
the activity tat arranged by school, it was damn bored !!
a lot of rule ....we take a lot game to skul ...
we bring fone, uno card and so on , but tiz all had been retarded
sooooo bored , ntg can do in skul now, i hope to back earlier contact vf my dearly computer ^^
but leh hor, can ply whole time in skul vf my dearly frenz ^^
from now i get more time to spent wif dem le, hurayyy^^
let's celebrate

skul arrange some spot competition n bored activity for us
tat was damn bored, spot competition cant be overlapping
but i wish to participate on both
arrhhhhh, it made me headache lah, watever le, jz participate both
while basketball den basketball , when badminton den badminton yeah
rite decision   =D

den tiz afternoon , i go village mall vf jia qi & thong
go for.... find job, haiz , susahnya
but tiz is jz wat the hard for job
i'm not enough age, so will b more difficult to get a job
so, tiz is wat the challenge too for me =]
& 2day i oso markh for subject
BC & MM, BC it's was still ok , jz nid the markh of paper 2
dope for no markh too strict lah
MM jz same like wat i said b4 , made the careless
watever, tat's gud so, god bless me , & bless my frenz ^^
gdnitez =]

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

the last day ~

huuray~~~~finish the damn shit exam PMR ,2day is the last day , ev-xamination for BC
queit easy & queit difficult
i din get confidence to get A in tiz subject , watever 2day was the last day
but i din get relax, very happy d emotion of it, dun noe y
may b b'cz is i never felt nervous in tiz exam
so it jz like normal, happy ^^
watever finding job now le
i wanna earn money for ply in the holiday
i wanna, huh can suggest???
arrr, tat's not a easy job, haiz haiz haiz...
susah lah ni, 2moro dun noe got wat activity in skul
hope won't be too boring la, expect the days after today ^^

finished exam , is tiz represent tat, the day we separate is coming soon?
i dun wan ....
but i clearly understand tat, we will going to different future
so we will take our different travel
fight for ourself future....
but i'm scaring too , scared the relationship between us will going dilute
watever, hope tat we still keep on although we are separated
i noe we sure can d, gok......

Monday, October 11, 2010

3rd day for the damn PMR

3rd day ~examination for MM & KH
tiz will b a tension day for me, i wish i will get back my result in the remain subject
MM i think i can , but in paper 1 i made the careless tat i shouldn't made it
it's ok , jz a few mistaken
but KH tat is queit difficult, how i get A??
yoooo~~haiz!! watever la, it past !!!!
tat is my choosen from the beginning ,  tat din pay my full attention in the revision
so...i can't blame to anyone...
however 2day queit miss to ling ling 【玲玲】...
b'coz she, i can came out from the sadness of the mistaken ...
watever, 2moro was the exam for BC, it is oso a subject i wish to get an A
wish it won't be too difficult la
i oso mark the mathematics, i may b get 3 wrong , tat's y i said i get a careless
tat is wat the wuestion i should not get wrong!!
huuuu, it past, kkay, 2moro , BC u wait me, i'm going to do a revision on u now !!

Saturday, October 09, 2010

5555, ling ling oi ~~~~

yooo~~~my aunt's cutiee baby wanna go home to kl le, 2day back to pinang, 2moro to kl ...
5555, u r so cute !!cubit seii lei ...
一星期来,好不容易与你打好关系,你终于让我抱抱,跟我玩了,你却回了。。。
不要啦,还要跟你玩,你去kl了,会忘记我吗?
虽然你是很坏蛋下啦,丢了东西,拿给你,又丢,又拿给你,又丢,又笑
看你笑了,我也捡得开心^^

才一岁一个月罢了咯你,太可爱了,整天要去走走。。。
整天要吃mum mum, 会肥的
女生来的你,要美美的哦^^
nex time meet u , gv u tiz small cutiee baby warning, u cant forgot us ^^
oso thanks for u tiz small cutiee baby, u gave me a lot of smile ^^

Tuesday, October 05, 2010

first day for PMR

today was the first day of pmr. 2day was the test for malay...
paper 1 & 2..
paper 1 is almost queit difficult, but as for those who are intelligent, it was jz a fur of them
but paper 2 is also queit difficult la, but if compare wif paper 1 , it was easier
i'm so fortunately tat, i had refer wif some essays tat is resemble wif 2day question
but, anyway, i still can't absolutely handle it, cz....it is still queit difficult lah


ya, today was the first day of pmr
but...i doesn't fell any nervous even in the last moment going into the 'battlefield'
ya, i'm scaring...
scaring about i did not felt any scare, nervous with tiz suck pmr examination
it was a fantastic as for me
watever it was a gud appearance for me
atleast i won me hurry when i'm examinationing, n won't b anxious disorder in the exam


in fact, in the BM paper 2
i finish it in the last moment
it was scared me, i thought tat i couldn't be finish it
but, luckily it get me enough time
i'm not requiring too many (A)s
i jz hope get 5 enough lah
remove wif the damn subject for me
left the (A)s of BC, MM, SC, KH, BI enough le lah
hope so , watever la
wish on tomorrow's subject won't be so dificult la


jz b tat, today the damn BM subject had pass
SYOK-nya
but the next damn subject will b follow by damn GEOGRAFI and  SUCK SEJARAH !!!
GΘD  βιεss ME ....
N bless my frenz all the best ^^

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